Well, folks–there she is! The cover of my FIRST published novel–TEMPUS. Want to know why I’m not jumping for joy?
1. Somehow (probably by my fault) there were errors in the first published version. I had this professionally edited, so image my SURPRISE (read: torrential rage). Sad! And,
2. The italics weren’t showing up on some e-readers. Never heard of that happening? Me neither. LUCKY ME.
Does this make me sad? Yes. Did I cry? Yes. Have I lost sleep and battled anxiety over it? YES. YES. YES.
This situation was a good reminder to me that I can’t control all things. Though I try, I can’t manage everyone’s individual impression of me and my work. I’ve had to pry open my white-knuckle grip and say, “Well. That sucked. What can I learn from it? What steps can I take right now to remediate it?” And beyond that, I have to learn to just LET GO. (Which I hate, FYI.)
My publisher and I decided to pull the book and are waiting to relaunch TEMPUS in the New Year. (Oh, and sending it through another round of professional edits.) In the meantime, I am still grateful for TEMPUS to get into people’s hands, and so blessed in other ways that it’s silly.
What do you need to let go of today?